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Why don't we start off with Lincoln in general, I live in a village in the middle of nlo where, on the waddington RAF base, in a smaller house. Now forgetting, the house is tiny and we have one less bedroom, it fine. It's cosy and I can grow to like it here. What I don't like is because of this base I can only get any singal on my phone, ONLy when it's on window sill >:/ But not to worry cause I'm switching to O2.

Lincoln is actually very suprising, besides the cold temperature (which I luv X3) it's very quiet (again, good cause it's actually kinda peaceful around here) but you need to drive everywhere. the shops, drive, the cinema, drive. ect, ect. you get the idea. but that's not the weirdest part, the ppl up here are POLITE! I'm seirous everyone wants to be nice to you, everyone wants to get along with eahc other, its just so peaceful. I guess the father up north you go the better the people are. Yet its like a double edged sword. While eveyrone is nice, its hard to spot the indivuality between them. Normally everyone down south dreses differently, you can spot, emos, goths, chavs, a mile away, you can label anyone and everyone. Here? It's like they're different but not. I'm not making any sense am I? Moving on.

Now I want you to remember this is a small village. When we drove into town, the main shopping area, it was packed! Street beyond street was nothing but different shops, some I knew, some I didn't. There's something for everyone here and I got lost so easily trying to find my way. Lincoln made every other place I been to seem like an ant farm in comparison.

As you can tell there is a lot to other here, and its also well know for its history, I really wants to see the cathedral, it's huge! but I'm still having trying to fit in. My parents are northern (we moved south when I was born) so they fit in fine. Me? I'm still trying to get my sourthern side to take a holiday.

I moved into Loughborough uni a week before the start of term and everyone was so nice. the place was great (you need the bus service to get anywhere) and it felt more like cmap then uni. I made friends with the girls on my floor and we clicked instantly (it took me a while year to earn my friends back south, so that's a heck of a step for me). I loved the halls, I luv the engineering bloacks and the courses. Every nights was nothing but partying and I really didn't want to spend them in a loud, sweaty club. so half the time we just stayed in and talked.

Now here's the twist, on the day of our inductions, I was introduce to the course and how we would be working, yet somone noticed I wans't on the register. she thought it was weird but told me to go ahead with the reast of the leacture while she got me a folder pack. I thought nothing of it then. It wans't until the end of the LOOOONG talk that she found me. I wasn't on the course. At first I thought it was a mistake, but she said I had been moved to a foundation course and should talk to the office.

I was disapointed, but not bothered, if I had to do another year to get on the actual aroenautical course, no biggy. However it was worse, aperently my grades did not reach their requirements (this is one of the best unis for enginering, so they only take the best, i guess). My course needed a lot of knowledge and my grades didn't show it so they moved me to electrical engineering. I was beyond furious. I did not wants electrical, it wont help me, so why didn't they just reject me?!

It turns out they sent me both an email and letter in MARCH, explaining this, so they offered me the electrical course. I never received either one so I asumed when they told me I was in, I was getting what I wanted!

I wouldn't have mind if I did receive the letter, I would of shrugged it off and took up my second choice in Salford. Instead, I was humilated in front of so many teachers, I felt like I wans't good enough, I felt like a moron when I told my new friends why I had to leave. But that;s not the worse part, I don't even care about how much money I wasted on staying im my room in that short amount of time. What I cared about was that the uni literaly stole a year of my life. If I was told fom the begining I could be on another course in a different uni, actually leanring something, but no, instead I now have to wait until next year just to get another shot at a course I know I can handle. I may not care about cars or appliances but aircrafts are the only things that fascinate me. My dad's works with them, I've worked on them! and I doubt they've even seen one up close.

I was robbed of my time, which was 10x worse then how much money they stole form me. Instead of just telling me no, they put me on another course just so I wouldn't leave and I felt cheated and tricked just so they could get my parents money.

I'm sorry this hwas turned into a rant, I know the course would have been hard for me, but I know I could of handled it and I have plenty of resources and help to make sure I kept up. I don'y suppose anyone else knows what they feels like

Still, there is good news. I'm not letting this keep me down, I'm gonna use that btec and I'm gonna get a proper job, then try again next year. Who knows maybe I'll get into the RAf like I wanted and then rejoin as an officer after uni (for those of you who don't know. Officer's a frowned upon by most workers. True they worked hard to reach that level, yes, but they did it the fastest route, not like ppl like my dad who worked fo the bottom. These guys, they're young, they earn more money, they treated better by the base and most of all they know nothing and earn no respect). that's why I don't think this is a bad thing, by joining up know I would have gone the extra mile and done the hard work , soldier trinaing and have worked under those who've done their job for years. then when I rejoin as an officer I'll have earn their respect and value my place more becuase of it

I know it might not happen, but this is a route I really want to take and I wont let another chance slip away just because of a simple misunderstanding.

Yeah, that's my silver lining, and I'm holding on to it.

but anyway, I'm glad my internet is back and I've missed you guys so much. I've been dying to know what's been happening with all of you